Memorable Quotes


”LISTEN TO HIS SEXY VOICE.” --Me


”You are an angel... when you hugged me, it made me feel like I existed.” -- Hazel


” Say goodbye to your kneecaps, trufflehead!” – Scout, TF2


”I see... so that is the Persona that answered your call...” – Elizabeth, P3







I’m getting onto some new stuff since I got a Bamboo Touch tablet for a Christmas present, the medium one, the spiffy new one. Yeah it’s exciting and all- now where’s the time for me to actually learn how to use it? Not very much considering my University schedule is beyond ESCAPABLE.



Anyways, I’m trying to find some way to draw for me... and not just for this site. I really feel that stepping up to my New Year’s Resolution is going to take a lot more than me saying “I can do it”. What I really want is to indulge in myself. I’ve never done that in my life, I’ve always been paying attention to other people’s problems and issues when I never pay any TLC to mine. When I do concentrate on myself and what I want, the best of my ability gets drawn out of me and into my artwork, my writing, and into anything else I do.



It’s not a selfish act. When you do something you love, you feel it crack your bones, and tingle your spine like pulling apart a cheesestring and feeling the very fibres peel apart, to reveal a tender inside that wasn’t there before. I want to feel that again, and I’m going to do whatever it takes to write the deepest part of me in my writing, and draw the deepest part of me in my art.



New Year’s Resolution: Search the cosmos for the knowledge I need to open up my entrails and find the deepest part of myself, and swim in the “sea of my soul” until I find the answers to everything.




Jade Cocoon... good LORD, I think I was... ten, maybe nine when I first played this game on the Playstation 1? It came out in 1998 so, I’m guessing that’s how old I was when I started gaming. LOL



Holy Christ. I can’t believe where games have gotten to now. When there was Nintendo 64 and Playstation 1, a lot of obscure games could be released, and it was a real treat to get the gold out of the mud if you know what I mean. The hunt was fantastic-- looking for these little gold nuggets lying around EB games and such.



Good old days.



Now with the Ps3 and the Xbox 360 I find that the majority of games have gone all mainstream, and you don’t find the really cool obscure games that end up being 100x better than whatever people think is popular now.



I dunno, it just really reminds me of how people got creative with game-story-lines back then, now it’s just whatever makes the most money.



Jade Cocoon was definitely one of them, man, it had artists from Studio Ghibli on there! There was only ever one sequel called Jade Cocoon 2 for the Playstation 2 but god damn... that was NEVER the same as the first one.



The first game you got to merge creatures together and completely ( to the extent of Ps1 graphics, “completely” ) remodel the appearance of your little demon. The second game nothing changed except the skills of the demon, so if it was an ugly little bugger with sick skills... you’re gonna have to deal with it hellah ugleh.



The generation of gaming needs more titles like this, like the Shin Megami Tensei series (I will talk about that one next), the Xenosaga series, and all these underrated collection of games that never get any glory- except for the really hardcore fans of them, of course.



Either way: I hope more creative groups make games like these in the future and don’t stop like the lead guy on the Xenosaga project. The whole reason Xenosaga stopped was because it didn’t make enough lettuce.



I hate it when game companies milk a game series for all it’s worth *cough* Final Fantasy *cough* (sorry for any FF fans out there, but, eh) and the good ones get stopped for selfish reasons.





So in future prospects, creative guys need to get out there and make me some fucking awesome games before I start believing that there are actually NO good games, out there anymore.






Shin megami tensei was totally unknown to me until enlightened me with her JP Persona 3 Portable game. I don’t know how you got it but FFFFFFF—now I have to wait for the USA release.



HURRY UP ATLUS.


It’s another one of those Japanese series that’s supposedly as popular as Final Fantasy back East, but never really got a chunk of fame over in America because people didn’t know what it was. Again, except for those hardcore gamies out there.


I digress.


I’m now playing Shin Megami Tensei: IMAGINE, which is a sweet futuristic spin on the original SMT series. It makes Demons look cool, and there’s no bit of cheese ANYWHERE- and surprisingly, the online MMORPG is brilliantly well executed.


Now the Persona 3 Portable game that my friend has is completely drool -worthy, yeah, but I have to get a PSP if I ever dream of getting it. Which I hope as Atlus SEEMS to have localized every Persona game out there, and if I’m right, I also hope that it might be several months before it reaches American shores.


The Velvet Room is the sexiest place in the game.


It’s like the epitome of knowledge all in an indigo, velvety room, with every assistant carrying this fat book of KNOWLEDGE, while wearing these futuristic-awesometastical uniforms. Plus the music is epic.



*DROOL*



And no, I don’t suddenly like this room because of the new MALE assistant that you can choose instead of Persona 3’s original Velvet Room assistant, Elizabeth.


It’s just part of the PSP game; I can’t help it if they make it so the Female Protagonist can date the guys in the game.



Sheesh.



_{It’s not my fault Theodore looks sexy, and sounds sexy, with his sexy voice...plus he knows everything, which is the epitome of sexy in my books. Books are sexy...}



MOVING ON--



I saw Avatar in IMAX a few days ago, which by the way was AMAZING in 3D go see it if you have not already.


As soon as I came home with that “theatre” feeling, I massively downloaded the whole OST via rapidshare, whilst singing along to Leona Lewis’s “I See You”. Some people say it’s better than Celine Dion’s “My Heart Will Go On” from Titanic buuuuut... I think some people got a little too caught up in the Avatar express.


Don’t get me wrong, the constant tune of the Avatar theme in the movie was beautiful, but the Titanic’s theme was so raw and basically everyone knows who and what it is that I don’t think people should be calling Leona Lewis the next Celine Dion, JUST because she got lucky, and scored a gig with James Cameron and his epic movie.



Besides the point to his graciously acclaimed, “Romantic sci-fi epic”, James Cameron did a few booboos that I’d like to point out, in my self-owned opinion.



For anyone who’s seen Avatar, did anyone notice that the Na’vi people were just that perfect combination of “human” and “exotic alien” so that people could fall in love with their beauty because they were exotic looking, but at the same time, could only do so because they looked so human?


And what about the feline attributes? Sure it’s a cool idea, but I know a lot of guys who think “bunny girls” and especially “ CAT girls” are like, the epitome of sexy. Hell, in a cast vote for “Who’s the sexiest comic book female” Catwoman was voted the sexiest out of Emma Frost and god damn IVY.



Just saying, I honestly thought it was really funny how the character design was constructed like that.



And I also laugh at all the people “Na’vi-fying” themselves all over deviantart. It’s cute, I admit, I want to know what I look like as a Na’vi, but I hope no fangirly, fursona shit messes up the actual intent.



ANTI-FURSONA-FANGIRL SHIELD, ACTIVATE.



Or how their diety, Ewya (LOVED the neuro-science behind this, don’t get me wrong, BUT-), could conveniently do the same neurological transfer of the human consciousness to the Avatar’s consciousness and worked EXACTLY like Grace’s machine?



Plot devices are a little too convenient on that note.



Good thing was that the human selfishness was played out well, and that humans weren’t the SUPER-bad-guy in the story, as many of the humans going against the Na’vi people stopped what they were doing and saw that what they were doing was fucking retarded.


There was no... how you say, one-sided-characters in this movie. Like, there was no “HUMANS ARE BAD, NA’VI ARE GOOD” thing going down. It was balanced, and the Libra inside me approved hugely of that being played out. I also noticed that a lot of people like me see Avatar as a “re-made Pocahontas” with epic cinematic screening.



Personally, if it was intentionally like that they did a good job of performing it. BUT I’M JUST SAYIN’:



The whole, “Invade the native land ‘cause they got sum GEWD stuff thar.” Is REALLY similar to what’s-his-face, the English, going into the native land and- you get my drift.


And then the “Mr.Smith” replacement is a Marine that falls in love with one of the Natives, and instead of being a snitch from the English’s inside HQ he sneaks out to meet her, yadda yadda, Jake Sully did the SAME thing. Jake first saw this as a job, now he falls in love with the people, the planet, culture, and Neytiri, all like how Mr.Smith did with Pocahontas.



Seriously.


My eyes are still boggling over the bioluminescent connection of the planet’s inhabitants and the moon, however. That just makes me tear at the beautiful imagery and interconnectedness of the world with its planet.




I WANT GLOWING PATTERNS ON MY BODY WHEN THE MOON COMES OUT






STAMPS














xoxoxoxo, Rainy

Memorable Quotes


”The book was so shitty that you have to scrape it off the bottom of your rectum, because it was too shitty to be shit out into the toilet.” --Me


”He’ll be banging more than drums. If you get my drift.” -- Hazel


” *Russian accent* I am heavy weapons guy. And THIS... is my weapon. She weighs 150 kilograms and fires $200 custom made cartridges at 10,000 rounds per minute. It costs $400,000 to fire this weapon: for 12 seconds.” – The Heavy, Team Fortress 2


”Some people think they can outsmart me, maybe, maybe. I have yet to meet one that can outsmart bullet.” – The Heavy, Team Fortress 2


”So, t'all you fine dandys so proud, so cocksure. Prancin' aboot with your heads full of eyeballs! Come and get me I say, I'll be waitin' on ya with a whiff of the 'ol brimstone. I'm a grim bloody fable with an unhappy bloody end!” – Demoman, Team Fortress 2









[edit] HAPPY 2010 GAIS...


I hope we accomplished tasks that proved worth while, and overcame obstacles that lead us to new places. Realized who our real friends are, what's important to us, and discovering a multitude of personal achievements.


I wish you all, a wonderful last day of 2009, and welcome a brand new and promising 2010.



CHEERS. [/edit]


<rant>

So reading the excerpt of The Host by Stephanie Meyer probably wasn’t the greatest idea, but I was bored. And it was as worse as everyone expected it to be.


I literally, cannot express enough hatred towards this new author. First she rips apart vampiric lore by making the myths and legends sound like absolute cracker delusions.


PFFF BUT WAIT THERE'S MOAR:



She makes the creatures a bunch of vegetarian, human-humping-hippie fags who secretly eat bears because you know, Meyer’s gotta keep some aspect of vampires real- just a little bit to have that realistic, blood-sucking, animalistic hunting (that should’ve been human instead of forest dwellers), feel to it. I have one statement I’d like to make, to remind you of just much of a laughing stock Meyer has made this national, traditional, “lurker in the night” mythology, namely vampires, to be:



Sparkly. Mother- ______ vampires, that butt hump humans and drink animal blood, fight their own kind because they’re a hippie-squad of fags that can’t grow vampire pubes and drink the real stuff. Human blood is replaced with bear blood, and fuck-scary vampires are replaced by emo-stalker vampires that jerk off to Mary sue girls with 100 year old virgin, zombie, sperm.



Crispin Freeman said that fairies sparkle and that he likes them.


I indulge greatly in his statement, and whole-heartedly agree.


Now back to the other horror filled nightmare that is to be, Meyer’s second series.





You read that right. I said series, and most of you are probably wondering this because The Host was thought to be the end of Meyer’s reign of preteen corruption on modern literature- FINALLY.



You’re wrong. On her site she exclaims that The Host is one of a Trilogy she plans on writing, complete with their own set of self-indulgent movies and self-glory, not to mention another “self” titled character, and a list of other self-indulgent characters.



And for the lulz, did anyone know that Meyer has never, in her whole life of 34 Mormon years, seen an R-rated movie? That’s right. Aren't half the movies in theatres right now considered R-rated? Thus explaining the child-like, love-gasms within Twilight.



She honestly believes hand-holding is orgasmic.



I don’t know about you guys, but I’ve held lots of hands, and all I got was a disgusting feeling because of how sweaty and clammy they were.



Sci-fi is the genre of The Host, paired with Romance of course.


HOLY CRAP THAT'S LIEK, AN AMAZING ROMANCE METAPHOR IN ITSELF!


Meyer is NOTHING without cheesy romance that sucks donkey balls.


So, why does she exist again?








Let me give you a brief insight of my opinion about this book.



Now, I hope you trust me, because I am currently doing some heavy research in Sci-fi topics and areas of science to help with my story, so I actually have knowledge about what I’m talking about without having a complete Bachelor in physics.



Meyer introduces a very fantasy-esque story of this alien race who conceal themselves as souls, silver ribbony things, as Meyer goes soft on every aspect of writing, and they are placed into a human body.



The idea is solid, but how the writer will decide on explaining this intriguing idea is through her writing, and this is where we get to see how talented and creative an author can really be.



And she fails. Miserably.


So badly, that:


I wanted to cry and kill someone at the same time while taking a giant shit SO hard, that my life would be sucked right out of my bowels.



Meyer describes spinal surgery as if blunt scissors was cutting through red construction paper with smiley faces and glue. The lead girl-heroine, Stephanie Meyer Melanie Stryder, reminds me of Bella all over again.



However, a slight adjustment to her attitude as Meyer either realizes the meaning of the sub-genre “ post-apocalyptic ” because the girl walks for over six hours to get food and water from unknown places and acts like a bitch to any living thing other than her twelve-year-old brother or, she decides to write this character as more of a self-insert Mary sue because Bella flopped and wasn’t enough of a bitch to resemble Meyers’ “strong-willed personality”.


She is a bitch.


The girl is a filthy bitch, she punches her boyfriend, and then kisses him afterwards, while waking up from this situation being in a total dream-fantasy and getting mad at him afterwards realizing he isn’t there sleeping beside her like a creeper.



Fuck me, really? I didn’t know the Sci-fi genre consisted of little girls waking up to bad dreams of boyfriends ditching them, and that it was so psychologically “thrilling” that the genre was therefore, labelled Sci-fi.


Teen-romance-novel.





The Alien I mentioned earlier? She has a name, and apparently a gender. She’s called the Wanderer, cheesy enough, and her abbreviated name is Wanda. And Wanda doesn’t like Melanie (heroine) because she wants her boyfriend’s dick, but then later realizes she’s a lonely bitch because she nags and bitches about everything because she wants to be popular plox, and then leaves Melanie’s body like an emo-faggot to sacrifice herself to the humans because NO ONE LOVES HER! BAWWWW.


And then her name changes from Wanda, to Pet. And because Meyer cannot ever, be consistent, Pet (if you’ve forgotten who anybody is because of the lack of illogical names? Pet is the alien ribbon thing that was put inside of Melanie Stryder’s spine) becomes this humanoid form, and looks like a fucked up Aryan Hitler zombie. Platinum blonde hair with ghost white skin, and of course, may I have the audience please? *holds up mic*


Blue eyes.



That doesn’t say romance novel when a luminescent, LIGHT magically takes a human-gendered form, and somehow becomes an organism too, let alone a fucking lightbulb that talks, that falls in love with the same boy that Melanie (the Mary sue lead) loves.


Yes, the alien was surgically placed into the spine (which is apparently not made out of blood, fat, veins, bone, and spinal fluid or any sort of tissue), of Melanie Stryder, and now the whole story is about this “strong willed” human trying to suppress this alien that wants to hump her greaser pubescent boyfriend.


Great, scientific plotline Meyer, really outstanding brilliance you’ve spat out into a 600 page book, with the cover being a picture of a photo shopped eye with a ring around it, to capture cheap eye candy for a story that doesn’t meet the standards of the cool looking picture on top of it. Which is probably all copied anyway, because that, Hand-holding-the-Apple picture, to make a cheap metaphor of Genesis?



Yeah, I saw that same image on the cover of a Home Sense and Cleaning book for $6 at Black Bond.





You know I think Orson Scott Card and Robert J.Sawyer should step down from being the leading Sci-fi novelists, because this, this is just phenomenal work.



Really? Some bunch of magazine columnists suggested that this was a psychological thriller and a sci-fi genius for people who don’t life sci-fi, but is sci-fi anyways.


Like we say on the complaints forum and on all the pornographic images here on deviantart, don’t like it? Don’t read it. Please don’t feed the trolls that bitch and moan about something and don’t bother to do anything about it. You’re encouraging people to be lazy, Meyer, so that they don’t have any motive to make them look in a different section of Chapters for a different genre.


I'm preparing myself for the cinematics of this Trilogy. Holy FUCK. *loads rifle*


</rant>




I got an awesome X-mas gift gais, and if you're creeping on me very closely, you'll notice that my old stuff is slowly disappearing...






STAMPS














xoxoxoxo, Rainy

Memorable Quotes


” HOLY FUCKING CHOCOLATE COWS ... this song makes me have an orgasm” -- Me


” Just threaten to marry him and maybe he'll have comitment issues and flee.” -- Hazel



”Oh god, Bowser’s gonna bitch and period all over the place.” – Kayde


”His will shines with such wondrous light; it’s a shame to relegate him to such a minor role. Don’t you think?” – Wilhelm


”Oh FUCK me...” “Sorry I can’t do that, I don’t have a penis. Ima have to hire a sexy man to do it for me.” – Hazel and I










Eh I’m pretty pissed right now. I went to go play Dragonica and get back into it since wanted to start playing, but ever since patch 1.18, it’s SO god damn slow! Even on my computer.



So everytime I attack something the screen just freezes. I don’t know if it’s the game itself? Or if it’s just the patch—if it’s just the patch then I’ll wait until they fix it with another patch. If it isn’t, and the game is just eating up too much of my memory then there’s nothing I can do.



I’m going to have to find a different MMORPG. Great.



Just when I found one that was sweet as hell.






I’m currently taking the time to research some scientific logics and topics, areas of study for my personal writing project. Don’t know how in depth I want to take it, but I think up until I understand what I want to actually write about will I stop and say “this is enough, let’s start writing, fool.”



Ha, Mr. T, I enjoy your scientifically proven-to-be-cool-and-awesome Mohawk.











HOLY CRAP! Christmas is coming and I hope to get something cool.


Last year I got my Zune, this year I want a Bamboo Fun (medium) Touch tablet.


and that’s all I bloody want, but of course, you’ve heard me rant about this before. I digress.


But I am excited, so I get to rant about it. LOL







STAMPS















xoxoxoxo, Rainy

Memorable Quotes


”It’s been orgasmically erotic meeting you” -- Sam


“LOL HE STEALS JIZZ BECAUSE HE DOESN’T HAVE ANY.” -- Hazel


”It’s okay, I’m about a 9 on a good day, if I were a guy” “Is that inches or hotness?” – Sam and Hazel


“If you have a class where the coursework is posted online... why is it even a course?” -- Me


”It’s from the 5th to the 8th, and I don’t care what you’re doing, you’re going to BE THERE.” --Kayde









Hey wow, I got a new avatar. Sweet.

I thought the turtle wouldn’t help me looking the slightest bit serious on dA. LOL.

So now it’s an awesome... rainbow, swirly-gig-thing.

HURRAY FOR PROMOTING SURREALISM.



Just a question to give you guys for the moment:

If you had to choose, and you had a limited amount of money to spend, would you choose to spend it on a Lime Green DS Lite? Or a Bamboo Fun (medium) touch tablet?

They’re... “around” the same sort of price.

I’m having trouble choosing, because my mom isn’t telling me what she’s getting me for Christmas.


So I have no idea if I’m getting a tablet or not, and since I have a high chance of getting this seasonal job for the month of December, I’ll probably make just over what I’ll spend if I have to get the tablet myself.

If I do get the tablet as a gift, I can spend my money on that Lime Green DS Lite, I have the very first DS so I’d like to upgrade. The DSI doesn’t accept my Gameboy games, so I don’t want to get the fancy new one.

Also: did I mention that the Lime Green colour for the DS Lite is limited edition? I’ve only seen it at the older electronics stores--

FML.



So I registered for my Spring semester. And holy crap.

I just figured out from the transcript I sent to my University that I have a C+ in English instead of the B that I need.

Now I have to take this English Qualifying course, get above a C in that, and THEN I can take the actual English course.

IN SUMMER.

Fuck. Really?

The only good thing that I’ve come across taking this English Qualifying course is that it might teach me some University writing skills instead of High school writing skills.

And I need to take Quantitative (Science) courses, which is fine, except this Biology course I have to take is twice a week, PLUS A GOD DAMN LAB.

Oh-my-god.

I want my fucking English, not this science bullshit.




STAMPS















xoxoxoxo, Rainy

Memorable Quotes


”She jobs at suckblow.” –- Complaints forum


“That sounds fucking brilliant you friggen genius!” -- Hazel


”THE DUCK IS NOT A FUCKING GOD DAMN SYMBOL!!! “ -- Moorhead


“Oh Jesus he’s telling a fairy tale... wait, I didn’t know God was in fairy tales?” -- Me


”Box potato ass.” -- Hazel


“The Nazis were actually really slick looking--” -– My Philosophy Prof.


“A pile of glowing dicks.” -– Hazel


“we were there at the time when he was snapping some man junk “ -– Hazel


”Lazur penis?” “Radioactive dick?” “That’s dangerous. Forget a condom, you’ll need a radioactive suit.” “Hey, if I had cancer I bet he could lazer remove that shit.” “Well, there’s a plus.” -- Hazel and I



” OMG ARGENTINE TANGO IS FUCKING SEXY. ” -- Hazel


“HOLY CRAP THERE’S ASS ALL OVER MY SCREEN—I’m sending it to you. “ -- Me



"I type in sexy buff men, and I get a fat man. And his ass." -- Me



”Just sunshine and blue sky, is this all we get for living here? Come fire- Come fire- Let it burn and love come racing through” –- Still Alive











Hey deviants, not going to say much in this journal as I’m currently super busy in University with tests and reports.

And yet I’m writing this out. .

Anyways, I may be getting a really nice tablet from my dear mummy for a Christmas present, but it’s not confirmed. HOPEFULLY—it will be. Because I would use that thing like I sleep on my pillow. All the time.

I realize I probably won’t be getting used to it right away if and when I get one, but bear with me. I haven’t drawn for ages, and I’m still adapting to a new style that I want to get going with.


and , I hope I get to see you guys sometime. I miss you!



As you’ve probably already noticed, the journal I have is all dolled up thanks to the Ninja Assassin sponsor. I like it, actually, and if and when I ever get a job I might consider getting a sub for the journal CSS, shout box, and most importantly, the STAMPS.

Who doesn’t love stamps?

If I don’t edit this journal after the 29th, the journal skin will stay...

Lolhur.

I’m taking another, yes, another shot at my writing again. I know I’ve been shitting around with it since I started, but ever since the high school drama has stopped interfering with my concentration; I might actually get somewhere. Possibly, with this band’s help ((Tool)) I might be able to recover some of my creative juices lost to an inactive creative flow.

Hey, just let you guys know: [link]

That site is the boss. It seriously is, and I really couldn’t give a shit that it’s for nine-year-olds, because MAN does it help!


You’ll probably see some artwork later when I beg my mom to get me that tablet-- HUR.

Personally, the idea is kicking sci-fi around like a garbage tin, and I love the industrial/mechanical/metallic feel I’m getting from NIN and Tool.

If you have a story that you need help on, just NOTE ME. Seriously, I’d love to help you!


I love Xenosaga, I’m a complete fanatic and have been for a consecutive 6 years ever since it came out in 2004. It feels more like an RPG and a story because of the cinematic like cut scenes.

But the ANIME—ho shit. If you’ve never played the game, go watch the cut scenes before you watch the anime. It’s a complete bogus, half-assed, anime LOL-a-thon for those who KNOW what actually is supposed to happen.

Complete dorks like me laugh uncontrollably at this kind of stuff. Bear with me LOL.

Although, the anime isn’t all that bad the second time around, and it has a good closing off within episodes 11-12 which is nice. It actually makes you feel bad for the kirschwassers unlike the game failed to do, which I thought should have been more incorporated in the game’s story, personally.

Also my favourite character (also known as the main antagonist in the game) has a shitty-ass voice over, so it’s so god damn funny watching the animation with craptastical VOs. Nonetheless, since the anime isn’t exactly the same as the game, I like watching the wordplay of the characters.


Plus, I also enjoy reading the English subtitles that don’t even have 2 words of what is actually said in the English DUB. HUR. English dubs/subs, how funny are thee.


Albedo sounds like an American thug and the only good voice in the whole animation was the kirschwasser’s.







STAMPS















xoxoxoxo, Rainy